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1. Rollin' ... Limp Bizkit
2. Ice Ice Baby ... Vanilla Ice
3.American Life ... Madonna
4.Invisible ... Clay Aiken
5.I'll Be There for You ... The Rembrandts
6.I'll Be Missing You ... Puff Daddy featuring Faith Evans and 112
8.Your Body Is a Wonderland ... John Mayer
9.Will 2K ... Will Smith
10.Barbie Girl ... Aqua
11.Make Em Say Uhh! ... Master P featuring Silkk, Fiend, Mia-X and Mystikal
12. Spice Up Your Life... Spice Girls
13. She Bangs ... Ricky Martin
14.I Wanna Sex You Up ... Color Me Badd
15. Follow Me ... Uncle Kracker
16.Mesmerize ... Ja Rule featuring Ashanti
17.Hangin' Tough ... New Kids on the Block
18.I'm Too Sexy ... Right Said Fred
19.My Heart Will Go On ... Celine Dion
20.Wannabe- Spice Girls
21.My way- Usher
22.Pop- Nsync
23.Bye, bye, bye- Nsync
24.Tearin’ up my Heart- Nsync
25.Waterfalls- TLC
26.Man! I Feel Like a Woman- Shania Twain
27.foolish- ashanti
28.If You Had My Love- Jennifer Lopez
29.I’m a slave for u- britney spears
30.Oops! I Did it Again- Britney Spears
31.Baby One More Time- Britney Spears
32.Gettin’ Jiggy With It- Will Smith
33.Genie in a Bottle- Christina Aguilera
34.I Wanna Love You Forever- Jessica Simpson
35.Allstar- Smash Mouth
36.American Woman- Lenny Kravitz
37.What’s My Age Again?- blink 182
38.Nookie- Limp Bizkit
39.The Hardest Thing- 98 Degrees
40.As Long as You Love Me- Backstreet Boys
41.All My Life- K-ci & Jojo
42.Never Ever- All Saints
i was such a loser.
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I'm in Pilot study right now. I'm so hungry I think I'm going to gnaw my arm off. Too bad lunch doesn't start for like 20 minutes.
I have to find my Pilot counselor at some point today to find out what my schedule looks like for next semester. I'm taking Other Voices in place of Creative Writing. But I'm not sure what block OV is. I don't believe Creative Writing is over today...I'm am going to miss Depeter's biffl posse so much! They're like the highlight of my day...
And as I said before, I'm really hungry.
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So I finally catch up, am in a pretty good mood, you know, the good stuff...
And I lose my entire binder.
All of my work.
GONE.
It's been MIA since Friday.
Then I had an icky day at school. I walked around all day with what looked like a dried bloody nose but it was just a popped blood vessel in my nostril. Except it started bleeding a little later on, and I didnt notice because it was only bleeding inside. So it dried and I had brown crap in my nose. Hott.
Meng and I got nothing done on our project in Physiology, which is okay since we're working on it Saturday. In Creative Writing I couldn't think of anything to write...It had to be metaphorical and stuff, and it just made me realize what little I enjoy to do and how its hard to make a metaphor of your own experience when theres not much you can relate to. So that was depressing. I went to see my counselor for most of G block, and ended up getting some of the packets I lost with my binder so I can study for the upcoming Italian test... so that was okay. I was just down all day. Not like that's anything new.
And I don't even know if I have to go in tomorrow. It's a short day, and the mainstream schedule is A, C, E. I have none of those blocks. But I have Pilot math 2nd Period. But my math teacher isn't going to be in, so I don't know if the class is cancelled or not. So I have no idea what's going on. So I don't evenm get to go to sleep tonight expecting to be able to sleep in or not. I have to wait to call at like 730. Great.
I need to take a long nap. I have to eat at my gradnmothers at around 5:30... which makes things more complicated because I'm so damn tired I just want to sleep for a few hours... I only have like one...
Well, off to nap now.
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I tear my heart open
I sew myself shut
My weakness is
That I can't do much
My scars remind me
That the past is real
I tear my heart open
Just to feel
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My kitten (Buffy) is sick. She's had the poops all day and there's blood in it and she's been sneezing and the other night she threw up. We've called the vet a few times and they said it was normal for that to happen sometimes, but today when we saw she had blood in her poo we were alarmed. So they think she might have a parasite or infection or something like that contracted from being at the shelter. It's so sad. I want her to be happy and feel good!!! We're taking her to the vet early tomorrow morning, so I'm probably getting up at like 8 to bring her.
My mommy's really attached to her already, it's so cute. My niece and nephew got to meet her for the first time today and they love her. My dad even likes her and he hates cats. She's the best kitty ever.
But yea, I'm fucking tired. I had a good day but it's been long cuz I've been up since what, 7? I always am awake the longest on Fridays since I have school and then I can go out cuz its the weekend. And I always push it until I can barely keep my eyes open to go to bed. I have to get up early tomorrow though, so I should be getting some sleep now.
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[08:04 p. ] |
Kinky bastard!
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I fucking hate everything. I sit in school and see all these people acting like they're twelve. The shit that amuses people I swear to God. Doesn't anyone ever grow up? I mean I'm not saying I can't be immature, because I can, but some shit is so fucking ridiculously infantile that I can't even like be near it. Is infantile the right word? Fuck English too, man.
I can't even deal with my friends anymore. I just end up telling everyone to shut the fuck up. So I guess I'm just warning you all ahead of time. If I'm an asshole to you, it's nothing personal. I just need space for a while. I'm having massive fucking moodswings for no fucking reason. I think I'm back into my winter trend; where I get depressed around December and don't start feeling any better until like March or April. It's happened every year since like 7th grade.
I don't know.
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I forgot to mention:
I don't pick up my kitten from the shelter until Tuesday :(
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| The first half of the Long Weekend |
[11:36 p. ] |
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Well. We got out early on Wednesday for the Thanksgiving break thing. I didn't go to school because I only had one class and it was a Pilot class so I could afford to miss it. I was awakened by Quigg and Jenn knocking on my bedroom window at around noon. We went to the Watertown Mall and I got my permit. We drove around and stuff, picked up Keith, did stuff I don't really remember, cuz I'm wicked tired right now, but we ended up meeting up with a bunch of kids down Albemarle and shit.
Then yesterday was Thanksgiving. I ate at my grandmother's, then Kurt, Aris, and Bannon came here. And Rachel. And we ended up driving around as usual, it was cool. We met up with people at Albemarle again. Then Rachel and I got a ride home from Mazzola, and she slept here. We stayed up most of the night... We watched Blind Date and played Mario Brothers. (Super Nintendo OWNS).
Then today I chilled with Rachel and Carlos, then ended up getting in a huge fight with my family, it was really chaotic. We all overreacted, mostly me, because I have a tendency to be extremely stubborn. We were supposed to go adopt my kitten today but everything got kinda fucked up, so I had to wait for my dad to come home. We ended up adopting a 2 month old black and white long haired kitten from The Animal Rescue League. The name it was given is Hermione. I don't think I'm keeping that name though, lol. After we got back Jenn and Quigg came over, and we drove around, and again ended up meeting up with the usual kids. At one point we ended up at 24 and there were like 1209482034802 people there. I heard people calling me but I couldn't see who it was cuz I didn't have my glasses so I just kinda nodded lol... I hate when that happens.
But yea. Now I'm home. It's really fucking cold out. My toes are purplish. We need to find a house to chill at tomorrow night instead of just driving around and like hanging out outside. My parents are going to the cape for the day so that should be good; nice and quiet! = I can sleep as late as I want!
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Put all your mp3s on your playlist, hit shuffle, and list the first 15 that play, no matter how embarassing.
1. "All About the Weed"- Kottonmouth Kings
2. "Got it Twisted" - Mobb Deep
3. "Poem"- Taproot
4. "Lust for Life" - Iggy Pop
5. "Battle Ready" - Otep
6. "Immigrant Song" Led Zeppelin
7. "Pour Your 40 Out"- d12
8. "Get Low" - Lil Jon
9. "Best of Me" - Starting Line
10. "Spirit in the Sky" - Norman Greenbaum
11. "Wine Stained Lips" - Catch 22
12. "Bathtub Gin" - Phish
13. "Semi Charmed Kinda Life" - Third Eye Blind
14. "Rotten Apple" - Alice in Chains
15. "My Friend, My friend" - Phish
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[03:50 a. ] |
I've been changin' but you'll never see me now
Now I'm blaming you for eveything
No more holding it in,
How many years can I pretend,
And nothing ever goes the way it should.
No more sitting in this place,
Hoping you might see it my way,
Cause I don't think you ever understood
That what I'm looking for are the answers
To why these questions never go away.
I'm so far away
I've been changin' but you'll never see me now.
I'm so far away.
Now I'm blaming you for everything.
No more waiting for the end
Of everyday that I will spend,
Wishing that I only had a choice.
No more pushing it away,
Cause I'll be busy watching things go my way,
Never looking back on this anymore.
Cause what I'm looking for are the answers,
To why these questions never go away.
I'm so far away
I've been changin' but you'll never see me now.
I'm so far away.
Now I'm blaming you for everything.
I've been changin' but you'll never see me now.
Now I'm blamming you for everything.
I'm so far away.
Hey, hey, watch me wave
Goodbye to yesterday,
Nothing left in my way.
Hey, hey, I've been saved
With sun shining on my face,
Getting me through this day.
Hey, hey, watch me wave
Goodbye to yesterday,
Nothing left in my way.
feels so good say...
I'm so far away.
I've been changin' but you'll never see me now.
I'm so far away.
Now I'm blaming you.
I'm so far away
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Whoooa shit.
What a weird night.
Afterschool Quigg, Jenn, and Ronnie came over. Then we went out driving, visited Steve at the flower shop. We ran into Joey Pine and his mom and talked to them for a while. We went to Ronnie's and I played him in Madden...Haley scared the crap out of me by coming up to his front window...it was funny...Then we proceeded to drive around, and ended up in the 24 parking lot. We saw Donovan and his gf there. Then we ended up meeting up with Frank for a few. That made me happy. Then we drove around aimlessly, passed by albermarle where we ran into Kurt and his car full of kids. We stopped there for a while, and they all decided they were going to left up the bed of Quigg's truck and like push it or something, then Quigg peeled out, so me and Ronnie ended up in Kurt's car somehow. We stopped somewhere in West Newton waiting for Quigg to come get us since he had my purse in his truck. Ronnie buried me in a pile of leaves, which lead to me having leaves stuck in my hair and shirt. So im trying to pull these little leaf scraps out of my bra in front of guys I don't know without accidentally exposing a boob. Then Ronnie was messing around with one of the kids I didnt know, and pushed him into Kurt's back windowish thing, and something snapped, and Kurt got mad, and left me and Ronnie somewhere in hte middle of West Newton. From there we walked to Shawn's house and hung there for a little bit. Quigg then finally came and picked us up and we went back to albemarle. There were mad people down there, i didn't know like half of them again but it was like Aris and Haley and Mazzola and Brendan Healy and Bannon and Kurt and all these people. And apparently the kids who didn't know me found it amusing to turn my saying "I'm going to cremate someone" into "I want to fuck a dead person." I have no idea how that could have even been mistaken for what I said or whatever but ehhh...lol. After that we drove back to 24 and there were tons of people in the parking lot. Theo, Jimmy, Savannah, Meagan, Chris V, Josh S, and...this girl from my Physiology class who's name i forget. I got a ride home from her which was really nice.
So basically tonight was a whole lot of kids driving around not doing anything. But it was fun. And now I'm exhausted.
The End.
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There is something really wrong with the kids in Newton. Like... "let's be gangster." K, guys. You do that. In your pretty suburban home, lets threaten to stab people and make up stories about gats and hos and stealin when you always have at least ten "bills" in your pocket. Good job, guys.
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THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
01. Alyssa
02. Belli
03. Lissa
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
01. Turtl897
02. StellarGodsmack
03. viva la alyssa
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
01. Italian...
02. Italian...
03. Italian.
THREE THINGS YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND:
01. life
02. love
03. boys
THREE THINGS THAT ANNOY YOU:
01. Confusing guys.
02. People who suffer from extreme immaturity. A little bit is okay, for fun, but when it comes to like real life issues, don't be a tard.
03. Most girls
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
01. being alone my entire life
02. The trailer for White Noise
03. My grandfather singing Jingle Bells in May.
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
01. makeup
02. music
03. sleep
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
01. PJ pants
02. The Crow tee
03. Peach undies
THREE THINGS ON YOUR DESK:
01. Finesse touchables extra control mousse
02. My cell phone
03. An applebee's to go menu.
THREE THINGS YOU SAY THE MOST:
01. Fuckin...
02. Dude
03. You suck.
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS AT THE MOMENT:
01. Pink Floyd
02. Shinedown
03. The Rolling Stones
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITES SONGS AT THE MOMENT:
01. Vermilion- Slipknot
02. Welcome to the Machine- Pink Floyd
03. The End of Heartache - Killswitch Engage
THREE PEOPLE YOU SPEND THE MOST TIME WITH:
01. Jenn
02. Quigg
03. Rachel
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOUR CLOSE FRIENDS:
01. They're funny
02. They help me through the hard times
03. They're trustworthy and make sense.
THREE THINGS YOU WOULD WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
01. being best friends
02. being able to be happy just being together
03. trusting eachother
THREE THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
...i used to have specific types but now i dont so...
THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T DO:
01. Apologize appropriately. If I make an effort, just accept it, please?
02. "Stop thinking about it"
03. Touch my tongue to the tip of my nose.
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
01. hanging with friends
02. sleeping
03. listening to music
THREE THINGS YOU WANT REALLY BAD RIGHT NOW:
01. To know whats going on with you know who.
02. To feel loved
03. Happiness.
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
01. Medical Examiner/Forensic Pathologist
02. Running an animal shelter
03. Therapist
THREE PLACES YOU WOULD GO ON VACATION:
01. Aruba
02. Bermuda
03. Italy
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
01. Find Love.
02. Go on the Price is Right
03. Go to Italy.
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[08:13 p. ] |
20 minutes ago. Getting ready for bed. Went pee. Flushed toilet. Washed hands. Was leaving bathroom. Noticed toilet water was flowing freely out of bowl. Ran through house screaming OMG! OMG! OMG! Almost flooded out to hallway. Caught it in time. Only got a foot out of bathroom.
Is now listening to mother cleaning up piss water with paper towels and lysol. And to dad washing his feet.
Feels like idiot.
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I am so tired. I can barely like type this. My eyes won't stay open.
I was up all night last night with a stomach ache from hell. And I still went to school today. It wasn't that bad except I had a doctor's appointment afterschool and couldn't take my usual afternoon nap. I'll be asleep by 8 tonight, no doubt.
I had an allergic reaction to a new face wash I used so for hte last couple days my skin has been wicked flaky and rough and dry and it feels all raw. And it looks like its flaky so I put makeup over it, which just makes it look worse. Thank God my mom works for a dermatologist. He gave me some cream stuff that will fix me up. Yay.
Term ends tomorrow. Wonder how I'll do on my report card? If it's not straight A's I won't be happy.
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